Yesterday was just a bad day. Mornings are terrible at our house because Mommy is responsible for getting everyone ready and out the door in enough time to make it to work on time. I try to do everything I can to get some stuff ready the night before, but it's never enough to get everyone to cooperate. Inevitably Amelia drags her feet and throws a hissy fit because she's tired and doesn't want to get moving, Thomas wants to eat five minutes before we leave, and the dogs want to go outside three times.
It was a typical Friday. Amelia was tired from the long week, I had no patience left, and Thomas was fussing wanting to eat. I had tripped over the dogs' water bowl and soaked my jeans all the way up both legs and had to change pants. We were running late already, and now Amelia didn't want to put her coat on and was doing her usual whining. With the last ounce of anything in me I yelled, "Amelia, put your coat on, I don't have time for this crap!" She finally put her coat on and started dragging butt behind me to head out the door. Then she started crying and whining mumbling something unintelligible, and then I heard what she was saying. "Blah blah blah CRAP! Blah blah blah CRAP!"
Great. Way to go, Mom. Way to make yourself look even worse as a parent. It's not bad enough that every morning is spent screaming at the kids and trying to get out of the house to drop them off at daycare for $200 a week so someone else can raise your kids while you go to a job that you hate and come home emotionally spent for the day with no energy left for your family. Now your daughter is obsessed with repeating the word "crap." "Ring around the rosie, pocket full of posies, ashes, ashes, all fall down. I fall down, Mommy. CRAP!" Nice.
Oh, hon, don't be so hard on yourself. You are doing a great job with little help and it is a very tough job. I don't know how you do it. I wish I could afford to stay home in the afternoons to watch both or that you could afford to stay home with them. Maybe some time that will happen but for now you are doing your best & that is all that you can do. Believe me, we all get frustrated & say things that we wish we wouldn't and sometimes little ears hear. Unfortunately, Amelia is so smart she has to copy everything she hears. ;-) But don't despair, just ignore it and she will forget about it and pick up some new "word of the week". Remember "damn dog" from Courtney. It could be worse! Hang in there, "these are the times that try (wo)men's souls"
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I know what you mean. I usually have to wake Madison up in just enough time to get her dressed and run out the door. She usually eats breakfast and lunch at my Mom's. Having her at Mom's is much better than day care hours, because I can drop her off when I need and pick her up when I need to, but yeah, knowing someone else "raises" your children is a hard pill to swallow. But I know you're a wonderful Mother. Funny thing is, these will probably be the things we miss the most when they start school! Talk to you later! Jessica Stone
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